Well, It is officially August, 140 days left til 2010. (:
That means we only have.. 4-5 months left of 2009.

This year, Has been pretty fucked up for me, Actually.
Not as bad as last year, though.
I barely kept my head above water..
I moved into a trailer closer to my mom.. My hours got cut at work & the person I was living with.. We couldn't afford 450$ a month.. On-top of whatever she decided to run up that month.

The trailer, Was owned by my mom's friend or so the story goes.
(that's a whole different storty).
We moved in there in December.
Lived there until he started claiming my cats were giving him some sort of HIV.
EL OH EL.
No, It was ringworm. MIND YOU.. My cats were pretty much locked up.. Either ion the bathroom or my room with me. So I was like.. Wtfever. Thennn, He was wanting us (me) to cover this & that.. I had to pay the rent up to date, & pay this & that because his lazy ass couldn't & the other roomie was always broke. LMFAO! That made me broke all the time just to keep a roof over my head. I had to take out loan after loan to make things work. (i'm still paying them off) Me & the guy ALWAYS fought. Then came Feb.. We left. We lived in a motel for sometime, I moved back in with my mom. I was offered a place to stay with someone at work.. But that fell out. So I ended up back in a motel.. Paying over 800$ a month.. Having to pawn things just to make it by.

Moral of the story is;
If you have the chance to go back home & make things better for yourself,
DO IT! It's alotttt better. :]


Being back at my mom's is great. This time, I don't mind helping them out. I suppose I grew up some since I last was here. I had time to think & grow up, I suppose. For the most part atleast =]] Of course, We still have our disagreements & stuff, but who doesn't. (:

I've been single since Feb. 6 months. Fernando was a cool kid but he was rushing things TOO fast for me. I like it because i'm not tied down.. But I am afraid i'm not going to "meet that one". Time is not a thing for me.. I hate waiting for things to happen. I just wish "the one" would walk past me & that's it. You know? Ugh, why does "love" have to be so complicated. :[

K-mart. EL OH EL. I've been working here for over a year. GO ME. My hours picked up though! I'm getting 25-30 hours a week. xD I absolutely hate the fucking place. I hate who I work with, They are so damn racist.. Minus a few people.. I don't get paid enough & I hate the mexicans & how they EXPECT me to know spanish. (I understand alot more now that I have lived in El Paso for over 2 years) I still CANNOT carry a convo with anyone, Not that I intend on doing so. But I do have to say, Knowing the little bit of spanish that I DO know, Helps out.. ALOTTT!

DIRT TRACK RACING! Wow, In everything that I have done, This has got to be the BEST fucking thing. I don't think I could live without it anymore. Haa! The ages that range on this type of racing.. Is just shocking. (13-74) & those little kids put those big guys in their place! It's.. A ritual for the year now. I only started going in May & i'm inlove. The people are just amazing & I love how it's a family thing. Everyone gets into it! It just sucks that people cast others out. It also sucks when people cheat! Come on guys.. & galssss. It's suppose to be fun.. Not a cheating contest. You knowww? Stop trying to be better then whoever! That's what nascar is for. (:
Mann, The fights.. Over someone pushing someone else out of a race.. CLASSIC stuff..
& not to mention the DOGS trying to get their legs into the race.
You all are awesome drivers! Minus the ones who like to.. Take a little drive off the track ORR lose their engines down the front straight-away. ;] Seriously, I think going to the races & watching people flip their cars.. Has made me relise that driving isn't all that bad. Racing is worse.. & I think it is something I might do one day! Many Many Many years from now.. When I can get into a car atleast.
To everyone who has flipped or had some really close calls, You all are the best! Thanks for coming back out each time & proving that you're not afraid of a little bump! xD

GOOD JOB EVERYONE!
DIRT TRACK RACING, ALCOHOL & FIGHTS!
Yeahhh, baby!
Life doesn't get any better than that.
Not to mention,
Royal trying to have some fireworks of his own! ;]

Only 4 races left. I'm going to be sooo lost! :[

& to Deana, I am so grateful that you're around for yet..
Another year.
8 years down, Forever to go. <3
I love you, bby.

Mm, Idk what else to type..
I think I typed it all out.
Ha.

Until next time...
xoxox